Friday 5 December 2008

~the aries baby~

well, i ran over this site, and felt that, what ever i had just read is sooooo real..haha... so i decided to share with y'all. if u happened to be an aries baby ( a guy of course), then here's to share with u), for aries ladies, u can view here. i know, it's very long~~~ but , i dun care.haha.) thanks CJ for this))).


An Aries man is full of surprises and excitement and hates monotony and dullness in life. Romance with him will be like a roller coaster ride, where you don't get even a single moment to think and brood. However, it's better not to expect him to understand that you need some security every now and then. Consistency is something that does not gel well with his characteristics profile. The love of an Aries male will warm you with passion one minute and the very next minute, you may feel as if you are sitting in the North Pole.

Don't ever be rude to him, he will be very hurt and will turn into the coldest person on this earth. You will have to start from the scratch again, to get back the comfort level you once shared. He is highly energetic and always full of creative ideas. You will have to keep up with his energy levels and are bound to get tired in the process, atleast mentally. An Aries guy will always remain young at heart, even when he gets 90 years old. Slow moves make him impatient. He is one of those who always move ahead of others, boldly and confidently.

He is generous in the matters of time and money, is full of compassion and always tries to cheer the people around him. However, just like a baby, he can get very irritated, inconsiderate and difficult when his needs are not met or get delayed for too long. Negativity annoys him. When an Aries male falls in love, he becomes extremely dedicated towards it. If the commitment fails to develop into a successful relationship, he will try his best to salvage it and make it work again. Still, if it breaks up, he will brood over it for sometime.

Then, the sun will again shine for him and he will fall in love again, with the same fierce devotion and loyalty. An Aries man believes in true love and will constantly be in search of it, though it may require mending his heart numerous times in the process. He will be very passionate in love and you will never get the chance to complain about the lack of romance. Right from poetry to candlelight dinners, you will be treated to anything and everything. He is not the one to hold back anything, especially in love.

It is advisable that you don't hold back your emotions too. An Aries guy is very expressive and will expect the same from you. Remember to show that you love him and care for him. You must also learn to behave like the heroine in novels and storybooks. When in love, he is very faithful and way too honest and idealistic to fool you. He was not born to indulge in things like promiscuity or even harmless flirtations. However, if you are not able to cope up with his constant need for enthusiasm and romance, he may try to look somewhere else.

An Aries man will never start another affair behind your back. He is one of those who first end old relationships and then move on to the next one. Even before something like this happens, he will let you know that things are not going as smooth as they were. He will try to make things work. Still, if situation doesn't improve or you do not do anything to improve it, he will decide to move on. The key to lasting love is always in your hands. Keep the romance alive and he will never even look at the hottest babe in the block.

If you are trying to get an Aries male interested in you, play hard to get. He loves challenges and will soon be running after you. Don't make the first move or you will lose him forever. He likes to lead in case of love also. However, do not try the jealousy invoking tricks shown in the movies. Forget actual flirting, even a teasing look at another man will make him go thousand miles away from you. He is extremely possessive and exceedingly jealous. An Aries man will want to be your first consideration and cannot tolerate being sidelined for anyone else. He wants you to trust him blindly, but he won't do the same for you.

He wants his freedom and doesn't like being tied down. That's the way he is, take it or leave it. However, you know it's impossible to leave him. He is so loyal, caring, loving, kind and affectionate. There are some Aries men who appear very quiet, but inside, they are as lively and full of life as any other male of this zodiac. Just give them some time and they will soon be their usual Aries self. Aries man is rebellious at heart and loves to go against the conventions. He needs to learn virtues like humility and modesty.

The learning process may hurt him and then, he will rush to you to be reassured. Remember to build his bruised ego once again or he will be very hurt. If you want to be with him forever, learn to manage his damaged confidence and show total belief in him. Never ever take the side of someone who is against him, even when he is wrong. You have to love what he loves and hate what he hates. For an Aries man, this is what true love and devotion means. He will give all this to you and expect the same in return.

If he is angry with you, there is no reason to worry for any damage to your relationship. It is his passivity you need to be afraid of. His anger may result in some very harsh and rude words, but it won't last long. He will usually be the first one to say sorry after a fight and will expect you to forgive and forget. You should know that he never meant what he said in anger. An Aries man will always be there for you, to take care of you. However, he will never curb your freedom. He always dominates the house and won't tolerate constant nagging. But then, he is that guy who will romance with you even on your 75th anniversary!

Saturday 15 November 2008

~LetTiNg gO~


she thought she would cry... feeling the pain in her heart, and the crushing heart, burning into ash... she thought she would die for that decision she would make... a decision that will change her life, so much, that she might not even recognize herself, for loosing what she had been living for...

but, somehow... she felt nothing... frankly... she felt relieved... freed...

it's been 3 years, 8 months and 5 days.they were together since her first birthday in this town. she met him in the bar, he overlooking her, like a beautiful princess among all other girls. he loved her. she could tell, from his deep blue eyes.

and she loved him too...

1 year later, she decided to give them a try. she said yes, and thus, they journey began...
at first, it was full of surprises. flowers, phone calls...

she decided to move in with him...

lovely sweet small house made for 2, she cleaned it everyday, bringing joy to the cozy little home sweet home, welcoming her apple of the eye with warm tasty meals... he was so happy he met her, he thought he would never love again... she was so happy she met him, she never knew she could feel the sensation so magical like that...

another year passed by. the passion cooled down... he turned himself away... on work, on friends... she was left alone at home... most of the time... she remembered her third birthday, forgotten, disappointing, and sad... it was in mid december... but somehow, the winter never felt as cold as that year...

responsibility... she thought it should be like that. he still told her, i love you, very much... she still felt the heat in him, in her...

somehow, the magic is fading away...

he started to take things for granted... she started to start crying... not even home sick will make her felt that bad... she thought, it's because she loved him so much, so she can cry...

5 more months... she moved out... even when she's feeling sad, she didn't cry for him anymore. even when he told her, i love you, all she can do was, smile, meaowing to him as he called her his little kitten, but feeling so heavy, and guilty for not being able to feel the passion, the urge of saying the magic words to him anymore...

phone calls was so much lesser, no more replying of sms... at first, she missed him... staying together for such long time made her felt, was she making a stupid mistake...
two month later... she started to get used to not missing him... the idea made her felt terrible, and scared... they still met each other constantly, but somehow, she had the feeling of avoiding him...
three months later... she was tired... it's becoming more like a burden to her, torturing her... even thought she had him, but never had she felt more lonely...

he missed their meeting again... suddenly she realised, she's not going to hang on to it anymore... frigthened, but more relieved than sad, more of feeling free than guilty.

she gave him back his guitar, the coat he left with her when he was over at her place, the cigarette pack and his favourite book...

a song from childhood, suddenly she remembered. 'tomorrow, even if i will be alone, i will be smiling... even if no one will remember my name...'

saturday, snowing... she knew, she will be alone... but somehow, she felt glad...


Monday 10 November 2008

~fAirpLaY~~



she was the innocent someone...
like eva, touching the forbidden apple...
so curious...
like an underage, entering the night club...
like the virgin, excited over the first touch on the lips...

he was the ultimate player...
having fun in manipulating people around...
swinging his wooden stick, like a pro...
sniffing over the smokey air,
for the sense of new victim...
scanning through the crowd, with his dark eyes,
for the innocent face...

miss innocent, meet mr. cunning,
mr cunning, meet your next prey...

and so, a game began...
with flirting, touching...
lust, greed, dark and evil...
young and sweet, beauty and beast...
everything started to mix around... fell apart...

she's coming in... he spread his widest smile...
hooked eye brows... protruded teeth...
like vampire leering over the scent of fresh blood...
he couldn't wait longer...
pezaaahhh... the real face exposed itself...

she screamed... she yelled...
she ran... she fell...
she stopped... she shouted for help...
noone's around... noone could help...

so she turned around...
swung her hands, like she'd never survive anything...
and one hard kick... one big slap...
another one slam down...

don't fxxk with me, you jerk...
and turned, she walked away...

maybe she's not really that innocent after all...
inspired by 'Night of the Dancing Flame'
dance choreographed by Wade Robson, so you think you can dance season 3

Sunday 9 November 2008

~uNtitLed~~



moving, tickling...
hitting the notes, bam...bam... bam...

head bouncing with the music...
like the base drum...
hit, hit, hit...
body language, too complicated...
one glide, one jerk, one corky twitch...

sunglasses in the night club...
sweaters under the hot weather...
winter cap in mid summer...
spiking colored gloves, silver colored make up...

like little kids, jumping up and down...
like professional dancers, turn and turn around...
like couples, seducing each others...
like enemies, hitting and counteracting one another...
like old friends, shoulder to shoulder...
like forbidden love, secretive and evil...

twitch and turn, jerk and move...
fast and slow... flow and stop...
classical music with pop rock melody...
piano twinkling with DJ's spinning remix...

mixed up... let the imagination flow~~~
inspired by, 'let the drummer kick'
dance, choreographed by Mia Michael, so you think you can dance season 3


Monday 3 November 2008

~bLesSeD~


in the beautiful garden...
she was wondering....
not remembering how she got there....

suddenly she saw...
a shadow... an illusion...
impossible...
yet, she wanted to believe it...

father...

he looked so healthy... and, young...
she missed him...
she thought she would cry...
all she felt was joy...

she ran towards him...
felt like the little girl again...
his little girl...
jumping, playing tricks...
like they used to be...

he'd always protected her...
just when she was going to fall,
he would grab her... held her in his hug...
warm hug...

don't go... she whispered...
picking up all the flowers...
red, blue, yellow, white...
she gave them to him...
please, stay with me...

he gave her a smile...
and the white lily...
like her name.. pure, sincere...
you have my bless...
i'll be watching you...
and no matter what happens,
just remember...
you will always be my little girl,
and i will always be there for u...

startled...
she opened her eyes...
the pillow was soaked...
and she saw,
at the window side...
a white lily..

i love you too...dad...
inspired by 'Time'
dance, choreographed by Mia Michael, so you think you can dance season 3
a dance choreographed in the memory of her dad~


~cHari0t~


they walked a long way...
long hard path, twisted up and down...
finally, the end is close...

smile spread on their faces...
one glance at each other, they ran towards the glory...
like victory after a long tough war...
like caged bird finally set free...
like warm sunshine after cold dark winter...

tears of joy...
embracement of happiness...
life's too short... but they survived...
too excited to say anything,
they just hugged...
patting each other,
dancing in circles...

it's not the end, they knew...
it's the beginning of a new journey...
still, they celebrated, for overcoming this obstacle together...

wait...he said...
he felt the sunlight, touching gently on his face...
eyes closed... he enjoyed the warmth...
peace... one moment of true calmness before the next run...
before they move on...

and life just keeps on running...
inspired by 'Then you look at me'
dance, choreographed by Mia Michael, so you think you can dance season 3


~gHosT BriD3~


a wedding day, without bless...
the bridegroom, stood alone...
no bride...

she knew, she's long gone...
but she couldn't just leave him alone...
she loved him... so much...

the way he kissed her...
the way he touched her...
the way he portrayed his love...
the way he played with his emotion...

they rejected him...
they said, she's too good to be with him....
they claimed, she deserved better one...
but who were they to say, who is good, or who is not good enough?

he loved her... he felt her...
he made her smile again when she felt blue...
he whispered to her, happy words...
he brought the ups and downs into her life...
until the last moment...

she would kneel herself down...
just to be with him...
she would do anything...
to know him better...

destiny tore them apart...
but she'd be waiting,
guarding him by his side...
blessing him with her might...
and one day, when they will meet again,
she will, eventually,
be
his bride...
inspired by 'Beautiful'
dance, choreographed by Mia Michael, so you think you can dance season 4


Sunday 2 November 2008

~aNg3L~



~~listen to the song while you read the blog~~


he fell, from the dark blue sky...
weightless... free fall...
onto the wet, cold ground...

broken...
he never thought he would go back again...
loss...
not only his wings... but his only chance, to be up there anymore...

one choice... not a wrong one...
he chose to be here...
love for human kind...
he couldn't just let them fall...

God loves them so much,
He let them make their own choices..
although the destiny is made long before they were born...
still, the choices they made...
learning the lessons the hard way...
he couldn't stand it any longer...

thus, he made his choice...
not wrong, but hard one... too...
cast away, fell apart...
he awaited in the dark...
people passedby, so many...
but no one noticed him...

still,
he believed in himself...
to build up the house of Love again...
to bring others to their paths,
with his might, and strength...

he lost his wings...
he lost his light...
but,
from his heart...
a glow of hope, started to shine...
inspired by, 'Angel'
sang by Sarah McLachlan
soundtrack of movie'City of Angels'


Friday 31 October 2008

~GuArdiaN staR~



lost and found...
she wandered a long way...

found and lost...
ran away,
because, she dared not face herself...
the courage of discovering the truth...
the faith of trusting others...
the believe in her ability, and capability...
none that she has... but one...

doubt...
hesitation...
indecisive...

she reached the end of the world...
where no light could shine to...
where no hope could reach to...
yet, in the utmost darkness...
she saw...
the brightest star, shining in the sky...

'... don't give up...
...don't break down...'
her mother used to tell her that, whenever she tried to run away...
memory flashed back...
before she died...
she held her hands, still warm...
and said,
no matter where you are,
no matter what you do...
i will be watching over you...
i love you...

after so many years,
suddenly she realized...
she could create hope...
she was her own light...
she has the strength to move on...

and in the dark, the star shined bright...
someone's watching over her...

lost and found...
and moved on...

in our life, everyone has a guardian angel...
whoever he is, the mother, the father,
the brother, the sister,
the God, the angels...
or just a believe, or faith in destiny...
hold on to it..
and keep the strength...
for we ourselves, can create miracles...
live the day we are living,
and believe, that no matter where, when, how...
there's always hope...
if there isn't, create one!
~~bless us all~~

inspired by 'Someone's watching over me'

soundtrack of movie 'Raise Your Voice'
sang by Hillary Duff
also a response to Las Nubes blog, 'Star'



Thursday 30 October 2008

~圆舞曲~~



i found this song while 'youtube'ing after writing my last blog...
and found it, talking about a waltz...
with a deeper inspiration...
but i think, the lyrics itself is so good,
i would just want to share with everyone...

~may we all found our own waltz~~


她需要一種恍然大悟的驚喜
she needs a surprise to make her realize
於是放任兩顆肺自由的呼吸
so, she lets her two lungs to breath with their own mind
慢慢過濾當中腥羶的微粒
slowly filtering the particles in between that smell not right
挑戰在夜裡把自己看清
challenging herself, to see through herself in the night...

她感謝身處一片燈紅酒綠
she's grateful for being in the busy city
於是才更想珍惜月的缺盈
so that she would appreciate more, of the full and new moon
那潮汐 那生命 那可貴的安靜
the waves... the life... the priceless peace
驚喜發生在 誠實面對了自己
surprise happens, when she face herself honestly...


她不想忘記了 她的名
she didn't want to forget, her name...
她不想膽怯了
she didn't want to be afraid
失去愛的勇氣
the courage of loosing love and faith...
她吟唱著真心的字句
so she sang the truthful words from her heart
找到自己
found herself...
面對世界
face the world
她們跳著圓舞曲
they are dancing, the waltz...
'圆舞曲' ('waltz' )
by 徐佳莹, 星光大道 ('xing guang' singing competition, season 3)

~ a WaltZ s0Lo~


party's over...
left alone he himself...
swaying, moving...
dancing to the song...
alone...

like his life journey, he saw everything now...
swapping through his eyes...
one slide, another... yet another...

happiness over, left only coldness...
celebration done, left only loneliness...
the more he mingled around...
the more he felt the isolation....

solitare..

dancing to his shadow...

like a waltz... dancing solo...
no matter how sad, he has to show a happy face...
no matter how painful, he has to move gracefully...
until the music stopped... until the heartbeat stop...

and thus, he danced...
like wearing the cursed dancing shoes,
his legs tapped on the floor,
one two three... one two three...

one wrong note...
a mistake... yes.. a mistake he'd made...
she left him... he knew he's better...
but she said, better off...
suddenly life seemed like a big prom hall...
with thousands of couples dancing to the song...
except him...

he danced...
a solo waltz...
hoping again, one day...
some one will replace his shadow...
he danced...
inspired by 'Victor's Piano Solo'
soundtrack from movie 'Corpse Wife'


Wednesday 29 October 2008

~SuMmeR BreeZe~



summer breeze...
blowing through the window...
calling upon the relaxed minds...

it's been so long since he last slowed himself down...
leaving everything behind...
he went to the countryside...
the small cottage was still there...
he didn't realize the smile he has on his face...
memories...

flying kites... just like old days...
on the small hill,
at the hind yard of the cottage...
their cottage, the place where he grew up...
dad and mum, happy to see him back...
rushed out, big hugs, and kisses, and laughter...
what can be better,
than a happy life, a wonderful family,
and a peaceful mind...

summer breeze...
blowing the troubles away...
sunset... beautiful scenery...
it's the sunset that year...
he will never forget...
his father, his mother...
his little sister...
and his dog...

dinner time...
he saw his mum waving at him...
from the little window at the kitchen...
smoke coming out from the funnel,
forming different shapes in the golden reddish sky...
he stood up... one more look on the meadow...
walked home slowly...

another summer almost ended...
time passed so fast...
but, no matter what,
the memory lasts...

summer breeze...
inspired by 'Cerf Volant'
soundtrack from movie 'Les Choristes'
lead solo, Jean Baptiste Maunier


Tuesday 28 October 2008

~Lif3 JouRney~


shakey hands on the piano...
he played, the song he loved...
white and black keys...
pressing down, coming up...
sounds of vibration, composing his life journey...

a duet...
his beloved woman...
she stood next to him...
she always made the same mistake...
he never told her...
he loved the smirk she showed,
when she thought she was so good...
now...
her kiss on his face,
it was like,
a cold breeze in the hair...
he missed it...

a composition...
his comrades... friends...
passed away, in the war...
broke so many hearts...
yet he survived... and he couldn't save them...
so long time, he blamed himself...
he shouldn't live the life...

a solo...
the wooden horse his father gave him...
he used to love it so much...
a quarrel... he left the house when he was young...
too young to make a mistake...
but too old to correct it...
he never got the chance to apologize...

an apprentice...
his grandson...
he gave him his wooden horse...
told him his story...
hoping that,one day...
when he reached the house of God...
he, too...
will be forgiven...

and then...
life moves on...
inspired by, 'the Piano'
video clip, with the song 'Comptine d'un autre ete'
,
soundtrack from the movie 'Amelie'


Monday 27 October 2008

~heLp~



he sat alone, beside the coffee table...
the dull old light bulb...
emitting glowy yellowish rays...

breeze, through the crack window...
lightbulb swaying...
shadows moving in the small room...
like a small prison, with nothing,
but a broken chair, and an old table...

one sip... coffee getting cold...
he didn't realize that...
too much going on in his mind...
like a big jumble of entangled threads...
got caught in a bush with thousands of small branches...

unsolvable...
he's too tired... nothing seemed to work at all...
work, friends, finance, love...
he wished he could just sleep...
but everytime when he lied down,
all things he was thinking about would ambush him...
like a flock of bees, attacking an innocent kid...
and coffee, working its best way,
to make him enjoy the suffer of insomnia...

no friends to talk to,
no family to complain to,
no nothing to depend on,
no way to release his weariness...
he started to take pills...
one... two... three...
finally, he got asleep...

the song from the radio playing...
'... calm down.... deep breaths...
everything will be fine... everything.......'

he never woke up...

3 blocks away, 10th floor...
another stressed man...
trying to figure his way out in his life...
inspired by 'Details in the Fabric'
sang by Jason Mraz, album 'we sing, we dance, we steal things'


~tHe tRue SeLf~


got used to being alone...
abandoned, ignored...
she traveled, through space and time...
searching,
for the place, where she could belong to...

different... not trying to...
she was different...
no place suits her more, than her own little world...
a corner... no one would ever step onto...

lingering around... trying to fit in...
she stood, in the middle of the crowd...
looking at every face passed by...
staring into eyes that pinned on her...
sarcastic... contempting...

reaching out.... reaching in....
holding out... holding in...

bullied... hurt...
still she kept trying...
attempting to be like others...

until one day... she no longer recognized herself...
thick make up, shiny clothes...
big earrings with branded bags...
high heels...
she never felt that lost before...
and never that lonely before...

she stood... looking into the mirror...
deep into the hazel eyes...
and saw...
the true her... sitting at the corner...

why need to be someone else...
everyone is special...
God makes us the way we are to be...
and i'm proud of it... she whispered...

this, is me...

she has never been happier...
she knew, one day she would find her heaven...
her destiny...

be yourself~~
inspired by 'elsewhere'
sang by Bethany Joy Lenz, One Tree Hill season 1


~De3pAvaLi~


lid the lamp,
spread the words...
for the good has defeated the evil...
the light has outshined the darkness...
the hope has taken over the despair...

it's time to celebrate...
lid the lamps...
streets, houses, yards...
all twinkled,
in the sea of lanterns...

everyone in new dresses,
congratulating others for the festival...
wishing everyone the best wishes, hopes and regards...
visiting everyone else in town...
noone is alone... noone will be alone...

happiness, joy, laughter...
love, care, friendship...
everything to be celebrated...
leave behind the hatred...
cast away the misunderstanding...
let us celebrate,
the festival of light...

~Happy Deepavali~~

'Dhoom Tana'
dance, choreographed by Nakul Dev Mahajan, so you think you can dance season 4


~Zombi3 wALk~~



night fell...
wind whispered...
through the graveyard, nearby city hall...

like incantation, they woke up...
climbing out from the soft earth covering...
wearing old-fashioned clothes...
covering their distorted face with newspaper...

they strolled across the street...
skipping through water puddle...
dancing under the street light...
enjoying the resurrection...
it's halloween...

late night bus passed by..
they disguised themselves...
like lamp poles...
like wicked trees...
swaying bizarrely in the wind..
noone noticed them... noone should..

moon crawling up high...
suddenly the wind blew off all clouds...
dogs started to growl...
like infected human, transforming into werewolves...
joining the big parade across the city...
and moved, fast... moved, slow...

3 hours before sunrise...
the darkest period, before dawn...
they celebrated... this was the biggest fiesta yet...
wild they went... sang and danced...
forgetting the time...

sun rose...
too late to escape...
soon the cleaners will come...
they would be horrified...
but they knew...
it's just another halloween...
an unrevealed secret...
of the busy city...
inspired by 'Cabaret Hoover'
dance, choreographed by Wade Robson, so you think you can dance season 3

ps. Happy Halloween~~

Saturday 25 October 2008

~au Rev0ir, Mon aMouR~~ *GooDbYe, my Lov3~



he's been called upon...
one last night, they stood..
facing each other... no words...

tears in her eyes...
but she promised herself not to cry...
so she picked up the violin...
played him their song...

he grabbed her...
kiss her so hard...
no words... his eyes were full of sorrow...
he knew... this was going to be the last night...
he knew... he won't survive...

and so he lifted her up...
with his strong arm...
and started to move...
steps to steps...

she cuddled in, like a baby...
his baby...
she couldn't take it anymore...
tears, reflecting the moonlight...
gliding down her smooth cheek...
no words...

it's time... he said...
he set her down...
took he rucksack, went on the road of no return...

she held him...
one last kiss...

goodbye...
inspired by 'A Daisy in December'
dance, choreographed by Hunter Johnson, so you think you can dance season 3


Thursday 23 October 2008

~GodSeNd~~


hazy...
it's been 3 days...
everyone is panic now...
something is going to happen...
noone says a word, but at least that's what they think it is...

words had spread out...
the final judgement is here...
the little boy sits with the family at the table...
everyone looks exhausted...
he wants to do something...
he knows he has to...

and so... he sings...
like a feather flowing through the wind...
so light... so beautiful...
like a ting in the morning chapel...
like angel's voice, soothing the heart of the uneasy...
like the little light of hope,
showing the way, guiding the lost...

calm...peace...
like touched by the angel, he sings...

for no worry can disturb they mind anymore...
for no weariness can burden they soul anymore...
for no any other reason, they should be afraid anymore...
for they have come back, to the house of God...

last verse, he sings...
like the bright sunshine, piercing through the thick grey haze...
like the glory, shines upon all the sins...
forgiven...
the angels start to sing... with him...
bring the joy to the world... they said...
tell the good news... grant yourselves peace...

the Father has come...
they lie in His arm...
peacefully...

inspired by 'Pie Jesu'
song, sang by Andrew Johnston, Britain's Got Talent 2008
(special thanks to CJ, for sharing this vid~~)



this is when he made it into the finals~~



here's another version of Pie Jesu i love))


Wednesday 22 October 2008

~expLor3~



'...in 6500 b.c. some guy looked in a sick friend, and said, 'i have an idea, why don't i drill a hole on your skull, it will make you feel better'... and thus, surgery was born...'

a lot of ideas and thoughts come to this world, merely because, there were this bunch of crazy people, thinking that they could change the world at that time. And yes they did... medicine changes from mythology, religious, superstitious, till now, believed by almost everybody. Hitler, he wasn't that big someone when he was young... but he got the idea... words are powerful, and thus, with words, he drove Germany towards glory, and wrote down one of the most bloody history of world...

we are afraid of changes... because changes mean new things, new environment, new people, new situation, and new fear, new unknowns to get acquainted with... but i do believe in human being, that when we are pushed, we will, look for the new ideas, new things to try, and, live better with them. and evolution thus occurs, revolution thus progresses...

'...we usually know what we are doing, and when we don't, we still act like we do... we walk boldly into undiscovered country, plant a flag and start ordering people around...'

Meredith Grey said that, in Grey's Anatomy, referring to how bold and daring the surgeons are, and should be...

In fact, at some points, i think all human kind should be like that... we sometimes are too scared to try something new, too coward to step up to the stinking customs, too settled to change again, and too kind, sometimes, to offend others by telling what we like, what we don't like...

And thus, she said further...
'...we like to think we're fearless...
eager to explore unknown land, soak up new experiences...
but the fact is, we are always terrified...
maybe the terror is a part of the attraction,
some people go to the horror movies, we cut things open...'

Explore the world while we still can, do the things that we wanted to do, as long as it's right, and don't just think about it...
feel the uncertainties we have been avoiding, run to the unknown we thought we would never land a foot on...
think of, exploring them in a good way,
and i think, we might have just discovered a better place,
an unseen wonderland, another miracle of life...

~peace~~

~MistAke uNdon3~



'...people are terrible, to the people they love sometimes..
they are mean,
even both were going through a really hard time,
you took it out on one another,
it doesn't fun,
but it is what people do...
it doesn't make you the worst person in the world,
it just make you, a person who...
just make a mistake'


this was said by Izzie in Grey's Anatomy...

we all make mistake, extensively, slightly; small ones, big ones...
some mistakes enough to kill a person, some mistakes enough to hurt a person till he decided not to live. Doctor's mistake kills a person, mistakes in words hurt a person. But it happens all the time... No one is saint, no one can ever escape the faith of hurting another one, in a good way, or in a bad way..

and i think the most important thing here is that, although we hurt someone, it doesn't always mean that we are terrible... we are just doing the wrong thing at the wrong time.. and, the only way to make things right, is to correct what we had done...to apologize, to forgive, to love again, to embrace the others... there's no such thing as, too late, and, never be too hesitated to do anything to make it right again.)

be the one to love, not to hate;
to forgive, not to blame;
to say, 'i love you',
even when the other did something very bad to you...
for a mistake made, it's only a point in life...
but love... it's forever...

Tuesday 21 October 2008

~FaLL3n~


he lied... on the cold wet road...
feeling warm... feeling cold...
red, splash...
silence...

three minutes ago, he was standing on the roof top, thinking...
the world is unfair...
human beings are corrupted...
the society is full of selfishness...

he was tired...
exhausted by the stress in work...
overdriven by his family...
exploited by his friends...

two minutes ago, he was swinging the bottle from side to side...
half filled, pale blue fluid, forming a small tornado inside...
the wind was blowing, silently, through his messy hair...
his face... his hands... his half ripped white cloth...
tough day... toughest of all days...

one minute ago, he stood by the roof side...
feeling the dangling foot over the cool breeze...
too many thoughts... too many things going on...
get out!!... he shouted... to the dark blue sky...
...not helping...
he was swaying more vigorously... shaking them off...

30 seconds ago... he thought...
how does freedom feel like?
is flying mean freedom...
is dying mean going to a better place...
he was confused... drunk...
he stepped over...

25 seconds... he got used to the zero gravity...
free falling... it felt so good...

20 seconds... strong wind against the his face...
his mind got clearer...

15 seconds... he regretted what he was doing...
he never did believe in better place after death...
he never gave up on any occasion...
he loved his wife, he liked his friends...
he enjoyed his job.... it was just another tough day...

10 seconds... he was despaired...
if only there is a second chance...
he didn't want to die...
not yet... if only he could really fly...

5 seconds... hopeless... he started to pray...
dear god... forgive me...

3....2....1....

he lied in puddle of blood...
the crowd started to gather...
fingers pointing...
blood flowing out...
heart beating... slower... slower...

is there really a better world?...
he never knew...
he saw no whitelight...
only the world getting darker and darker...

another confused soul... took the short cut in the life journey...
peace be with him...

Saturday 18 October 2008

~deVoteD~


come on, he said... be happy...
i'm here...

he is always there...
no matter what happens..
sad, happy; scared, upset;
standing beside her, makes him feel satisfied...

he likes it, when she looks in his eyes...
he likes it, when she closes her eyes, and moves with the music...
he likes it, when she touches his hands, while he sleeps...
like the paws of little cat, soft, warm, and delighting...
he likes it, when she jumps and runs and walks and talks...

he loves to follow her steps...
one jump, one turn, one open arm into the air
one twist, and one laugh...
one fall, he rushes to her...
carries her up, so high... too worried to let her fall again...

she's too delicate, too precious...
seeing her cry, makes his heart shattered..
watching her helpless, but can do nothing,
makes him feel useless...

but no matter what happens, he follows her...
to wherever she goes...
to support her, to give her hope...
to cheer her up, and to calm her down...
to let her know, that even if tomorrow, there will be no sun,
he will make the sun for her...
even if everyone turns against her,
he will protect her...

she's the one...
his one...
who cares about being the main character in a play...
as long as she is happy,
that's all he cares...

...i love you...

~to all lovers in the world~~ best wishes~

inspired by 'lost'
dance choreographed by Mandy Moore, so you think you can dance season 4


~stRanG3r~


he walked alone...
in the path, of uncertainty...
she walked alone...
in the road, of insecurity...

side to side, the roads moved on...
they'd never seen each other...
eyes on the black dark ways...
so far upon, nothing could be foreseen...

until this moment...
a meteor glided across the sky...
wishes they made...
along the tail of the burning star,
their eyes met...

one, two, three, four, five....
i'm faster than him...
i'm faster than her...
i have more than he has...
i have more than she has...
i'm better... he thought...
i'm better... she thought...

and the roads came to a cross...
chemistry happened...
hands over hands, legs upon legs...
they avoided each other, attacked each other...
trying to know each other...
trying to understand each other...

and then...for no reason...
he would hold her if she fell...
she would calm him down, if he got upset...
he would sit with her if she's sad...
she would be with him if he needed someone...

until one day... they realised...
their wishes, casted to the burning star...
found them... when their eyes first met each others'

they walked along... together...
on the road.. of no regret...

inspired by 'hometown glory'
dance choreographed by Mia Michael, so you think you can dance season 4


Friday 17 October 2008

~bedTime sWe3tHeaRt~


startled... he sat up on the bed...
he never realised, when he fell asleep...
rain trickled down the window...
like little crystal, reflecting the street lights, and the traffics...

it's been three weeks, one day, thirdty-four minutes and twelve seconds...
she was not there... for this long time...
he missed her... her warm hands on his back,
her long fingers, playing with his hair,
her soothing voice, whispering in his ear...
her vibrant eyes, looking into his...

he smiled, thinking of her sweet smile, and soft long hair...
then sad, she was no longer there...
his hand reached out...he thought he saw her smile again...
illusions...
things happened too quickly... he never foresaw this coming...
it broke his heart... so deep, so painful...
and thus, he was alone in the bed...

cold, lonely... he wished she'll be there...
just like before, when he would slowly glide into the bed,
when she was asleep...
and caressed her hair, and said, 'i love you...'
and she would turn over, and hug him...
and with the sweetest innocent smile,
open her eyes, and said, 'i love you too'...

love, too far to pursue..
too hard to hold on to...
he wished he would be in dream...
at least, he won't feel the pain that hurting..
the loneliness that suffocating...

it's only he, again, another night...
wishing...
inspired by 'dreaming with a broken heart'
dance choreographed by Mia Michael, so you think you can dance season 4


Wednesday 15 October 2008

~seDucTion~


night fell... the street lights started to light up...
neon lights all over the city...
it's again, the city which never sleeps...

ladies at the corner, whispering to each other...
laughed out, with a slight giggle,
seducing the passerby...
sharp colored coat, with sexy stripes...
short skirt, with tempting smooth dark silk stokings...

one finger, flexing and extending... bringing him in...
he got indulged, by the breathes of lust,
by the temptation of greed...
he went in... further and further....

one door opened by another...
more and more they came out...
showing the wonderful side of the underworld...
like amazing a little kid in the fun fair,
one trick by another,
bringing him from one corner to another...

deeper and deeper he sank in...
to the dark side of the unknown world...
hidden in the city that never sleep...

and they started to cover the entrance...
quickly and silently...
and started their acting all over again...
like puppets of a hidden master, bringing more people in...

this is how they live... and this is the life they have...

it's a secret...
check it out... but, don't tell...
shhhhhh.....
inspired by, 'put ur hands where my eyes could see'
dance choreographed by Wade Robson, so you think you can dance season 3


Tuesday 14 October 2008

~w0rDs~~


"... horrible things do happen...
happiness in the face of all horrible things, that's not the goal...
feeling the horrible, and knowing,
that you're not gonna die from those feeling,
that's the point...'

these are some words that i heard from 'Grey's Anatomy'. They touched me so much...
Horrible things do happen, and all the while, i think, as a human being, most of us will try to avoid it, or excape from it, or turn ourselves against it.. thinking that, everything will be fine soon, it's not that bad...


feel it, learn from it; feel the fall, and stand up again...
that's what we should do...
let the feeling cut u in.... and cry it out, loud...
and then rise from within, knowing that, you have moved on...
you survived...
that, is what i think, how we should learn, and, to know, that we are still alive...

i once told one of my close friends, the horrible feeling u are having now,
it won't go away, nor will u forget about it...
time will wash it away, cool it down...
but deep down, it will always be there...
so why not embrace it... say it out... and then let it go...
one day, you might actually feel that, it's actually nothing...
because you have moved on...


"...bones break, organs burst, flesh tears...
we can seal the flesh, repair the damage, ease the pain...
but when life breaks down, when we break down,
there's no sign, no hard and fast rules...
we just have to feel all the way through..."

~HaLLowe3N~~


it's the time again...
they are awaken...
ladies and gentlemen, welcome our very special guests...
the~~~~~ zombies in the house~~

and they come down the stairs...
gracefully, greeting the guests in their house...
moving with the music,
holding their stiff bodies together...

one bow to the audience, the prom begins...
they glide across the dance floor...
moving from one side to another...
one turn, one swing, one bent, one shake...
one jerk on the neck, one smirk on the face...
the dislocated joints look like they are going to fly off from the master
anytime...
but still, hold up strongly...

the zombie dance...

under fullmoon, under the howling of wolves...
under the candle lights from the chandelier high above...
in the grand house, once dwelled by Dukes and Dutches...
with the creepiest, eeriest dance, they celebrate...
the revival of their bodies, they soul once every year...

this october...
invitations are sent out...
for those who dare,
welcome to the haunted house..

Happy Halloween~~~
inspired by, 'Ramalama (Bang Bang)'
dance choreographed by Wade Robson, so you think you can dance season 2



Sunday 12 October 2008

~tHe pRay3r~


they sat, in the dark...
one against another...
huddling each others' shivering bodies...

the war was so close to them...
they could hear the explosion, like a dull thump on the earth...
all the men were summoned to the front line,
to protect their country, their families, their love ones...
and they, they were those left behind...
helpless, shattered, cold...

the kids were sound asleep beside the warm fire...
but they, they dare not close their eyes...
too worried to sleep,
too scared to lie down...
too shocked to believe that this was happening...
too helpless to do anything for anyone, including themselves...

thus, they gathered at the small hut,
by the side of house, where the kids lied...
holding one firm believe...
one strong will...
one deep love...
they prayed...

dear maria...
bless us all, bless our beloved ones...
bless our children, to have a better tomorrow...
bless our husbands, brothers, sons, who fight for us...
amen..... amen....

again and again they repeated those words...
like a incantation, filling the atmosphere above...
the sky suddenly was clear...
no wind, no cloud... no smoke...
hope is here, they whispered...
miracle is here, they thought...

and so they thought...

... ...

the army marched by...
one of them were crying...
a young man, silently, wishing...
'may you live happily, peacefully, in the other side...
i love you...'
inspired by, 'ave maria'
dance choreographed by Mia Michael, so you think you can dance season 4


Friday 10 October 2008

~L0sT~~

fear, anxious, upset, lost...
hid behind the face,
stiff, emotionless, defensive...

slowly, hands reached out... they searched for the others...
for support, for help, for relieve...
for being lost in the hustle-bustle world...
for being swallowed by the current of globalization...
for trying to be a part of the fast-growing society...

lost, in this world...
lost, in the direction...
lost, in what had been the dream they dreamed of...
lost, in the passion of what they once had...

tried to stand out, but the gravity was too strong...
the struggle to hard to fight,
the current to strong to go against...
like a fish in a big herd, having no chance to prove,
that it can be different...

so they stood, holding hands...
pushing each other up and up...
n withhold each other, when they fell...
moving in one direction...
like roman spartans, fighting against thousands of Persian army...

they fought...

and the spotlight shined upon....

found...

inspired by, 'hide and seek'
dance choreographed by Mia Michael, so you think you can dance season 2


~tHe c3LebrAtioN of Lif3~


peace, filling the whole atmosphere...
it feels like, the new breath of earth,
the first light from the sun after a long night,
the birth of a new star,
the peace after the war...

white, pure, like a child they laugh,
like a bird, they fly high,
like the wind, they bring the breeze of joy,
like the sun, they emit the warmth to every heart...

and one by one, they start to hum...
in words they are familiar with, but bring them the utmost joy they've never felt before...
hand to hand, they circle, around the new life they have been given to,
for this,
is the celebration of life...
the embracement of newbirth...
the hope for tomorrow...
and the best wishes, to the future...

and thus, they sing,
...just remember, in the winter,
far beneath the bitter snow...
lies the seed, that with the sun's love,
in the spring, becomes the rose...
inspired by, 'the rose'
dance choreographed by Mandy Moore, so you think you can dance season 4